In another life

Promises we either break or keep or even take back to those who do not deserve them anymore. But i don't think anyone, not even yourself should feel like you have to deal with something because if you don't, you're scared of what might happen, should we let people control us like that?

No, in a way people should never have a hold over us, to make us feel scared. In any curcumstance you may be in, or find yourself that you personally are not happy with the way you are being pushed about then only you can make it stop. Even if the outcome leaves you as one of those crazy people with millions of cats, atleast you'll be happy knowing that you weren't being forced by through life hanging on a piece of string. 

 I like to think that not all people want to be a leader, some want to follow aswell,  behind closed doors of a church only they know what really goes on. The confession box, now i've never really got the point of this, so what? People go in, confess their sins, then leave? But the old guy behind the wooden see-through window can see them? Huh? That's one thing i'll never get, or maybe that's just in the movies and it's not actually like that in real life? I'm not sure, but if i have any sins to confess i won't be going to tell the big G- O- D.


This wasn't mean't to turn all reglious but when i start typing and thinking, i'll end up not knowing half of what i say. Anyway, the whole point of this blog is to ask a question, and even though you can't answer to me exactly, but it's mostly for yourself to think about.


Question -  What would you do different if you were given a second shot at life?


My answer - Well no one really knows what happens when you die, or what happens after, is any such thing as after? But any how, i know i'm still only young and yet 4 days till i'm offically an adult being 18, well i would change how my childhood effects what i am today, even though i'm much stronger than i was when i was 12, but going through alot i would make sure that my little 12 year old self stood up against people that disliked me for many reasons, and made sure that what ever happened i would be my happy little self and enjoyed my happy moments and not dwell on the sad. I'm not sure what you would do, given take you're older, the same age, or even younger. I'm sure there would be one thing you would do different. I would make sure that no matter what, i would be myself and not change for anyone.


<3

Moving on

Well lately i've been such a mess, i've been wondering what track to next take in my life. With having alot of stress from home with my grandad being ill then passing, and many other things, also with exams from college and so much work to be due in, finally have passed and now sorting out my future seems more clearer.


Even though everyone hates being alone, and yes i do too, but this year i think the big four letter word is going to be at the bottom of my list, i've had to many hearts broken to find another one to crack. It's time to sort myself out before i dive in for more. Even though it still hurts i think it's for the best to concentrate on my future than worrying about problems that should not be an issue.


Well i've decided to do a third year at college, even though my plan was to have a gap year, but i thought why wait a year to decide something that i know now? Well i've been put on courses that may help and i'm sure will help me for my future plan. One is to create a portfolio for Uni of all my photographs that are top notch, i also want to prove to people that i can go somewhere and actually do things for myself. It all depends on how well i do within the next months, i've recently been skipping alot of college, i don't know why i just haven't been that motivated to go in, but i'm slowly getting back into it.


While these blogs may seem a bit personal and detailed, but these help me to express and when i look back at these i can relate to what i was and am feeling at the time, these aren't for you to read, but for me also.


Life taught me to die, but i will live with a fight <3

Scars and Stories.

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost you witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wana scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know 

Cannonball - Damien Rice

In his final resting place, Peace.

10.01.2012 - the day the most proudest, wonderfulest, kindest, sweetest man to ever have lived, died.

Forever loved, Grandad, Dad, Uncle, Brother and Son. <3

To be edited.

What is Normal?

Well i'd thought i'd start off with what my Blog is called. What is Normal? Now everyone knows or should know that Normal is just a word that many people ask either themselves or others, to understand why things are different. I understand, but what really bugs me is that, why do people consider themself to be in a 'normal' category when no one really knows what Normal can be. Everyone is different, in there own little way, even twins have unique features.


I thought i'd call it this as throughout my years of understanding what life is and what is different, and what is considered to be actually normal i have found out that not many people ask or try to find out what can actually be normal? is there any such thing?


I know i'm only 17, but i have so much to learn about life and people. And i think the sooner people realise that everyone is not perfect,either ugly,fat, thin, pretty, all these words to describe a person. Not even knowing them and putting a label on people, like they know exaclty what someone else is. Well one day people will have to understand that just because they haven't got a great figure, or the beauty spot that every boy/girl dreams of, doesn't give you the right to tag others on how they look or dress.


Meg White, Blogging #1 - Many more to come!

 THIS IS AN EDIT FROM MY VERY FIRST BLOG, IT WENT WRONG SO HAD TO POST IT AGAIN. =[

One chance to shine

We all feel that theres only one point in your life that will be the best, most greatest and a point that changes you and your life completely. But how can we know that this one point isn't just another stepping stone for you to jump off? Well that may be the case, i suppose you do have to jump from stone to stone to eventually get to that shining star, but when you find it and it dims out, what do you do after?  do you give up and never choose to fight? No! As the song of Bon Jovi - unbreakable. You are unstopable in what ever you choose to do, either bad or good.. past is past, and the future is yet to come.. never regret something that once made you smile. <3 Peace.