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Tuesday 1 January 2013

In for the change.

Well, as it's a new year I'd thought I will update this, and I am going to try and post a blog at least once a week! Maybe every Monday .. Anyway I hope everyone had a lovely Christmas and New Year send off. I spent It with my Mum and Nan.. It was the first Christmas without my Grandad, It felt ever so weird and strange with doing less and being with less people, although I did have to make the Christmas dinner with my Nan as my mum was working till 2pm, and no i did not burn it!! It actually turned out lovely. By the end of the day I had won £3 with playing deal or no deal board game, though I won't tell my Nan or Mum that i actually followed the £100,000 box around and chose the right one, ;)

2012 brought lots of pain and loss, with the death of my Grandad (forever rest in peace) on the 10th of Jan, which is close to a year and It still doesn't feel real. Amongst this I started college for my 3rd year, had to start new classes, meet new people all over again, and I think I'm nearly ready to go to Uni, however I have a very simplistic brain and I'll probably get more stressed and confused before i even get accepted into Uni let alone start.. But that's for me to worry about over the summer whilst waiting for results! From now on I'll have to put double effort in everything I do to really achieve what I want. 2012 also brought new oppotunites and experiences, however I'm stuck with the old, it's comfortable and I truly wouldn't want to change what I have and don't have.


2013 - Bringing it all to one, this is the year I'm going to finally be able to start experiencing a new perspective on life, with finishing college (FINALLY!!) and hopefully going to UNI to study Photography as an degree. Wishing to move away from home and family will be hard, but I want to widen my horizons and become independent, as I fear if I never leave this place, I will never change.  I'm worried that if I'm never fully alone, with no help and no one to turn to I'll always be hanging on by other people and never be my true  self.

As well as Uni prospects, I wish to finally get a job (Yes you may call me a bum, but I have been in education, and I've never really needed the money). I want to create an actual real life and become the person I want to be. To look different, and to be able to do all the things I couldn't do without getting too far into it.

Anyway, I'm really hoping that this year will be the big one, the life changer and the one to bring happiness and life back into me.

Wishing everyone a wonderful 2013 with many more years to come!

Live, Laugh, Love.

Peaceskies <3