I'm feeling like this could be it.

I've found it, I've finally found it! All along and it was there just waiting to come out. Happiness, I've found it and I'm never letting go.

Moving like a balloon

Explanation: A balloon either falls to the floor, eventually deflates or is popped which leaves nothing but the outside remains of the balloon itself. Or it floats up and gradually reaches its highest peak until it can't go any further and just pops. - The meaning of this is that what goes up must come down.

So, what does this exactly mean Meg? Well, it can mean whatever you wish it to mean. I can't tell you to believe or do anything, but I can persuade you. That's a trick worth learning, because without it, I don't think you'd survive.

Now either you reach your lowest point in life (which basically is when you die, because nothing could possibly be worse than that? Right? ) Well no, but you think it is, ok now that I’ve told you that nothing is worse than being dead, I bet that 1 million reasons for saying "that’s not true" comes to mind. Yes, well done you've gained access to part 2 of being a balloon, strange huh? I'm saying that you start off as a baby, grow up in a situation, reach a point where you think 'fuck this' and i'm telling you, EVERYONE reaches this point, because nothing can be perfect, even the rich little kids that get everything can fall over into a bush full of nettles and be scared for life (yes this happened to me, however at this point I was wealthy, well my parents were.)

Right so at this point I bet you're wondering where this is leading? Well me too.. I'm writing this as it comes to mind, nothing is planned. So now that we've all gathered we were once a baby and money is an object, we can start to gain access to part 3. Yes! Isn't this fun? Part 3 of a balloon.. you begin to aim higher and higher in life, going through many changes in emotions, decisions when eventually you're at the peak, BANG! Oh? whats that? Yes you've popped, and gained access to the real life you should have been living while you were floating up high to reach this moment.

Well done!

If you got none of this, I’ll allow you to be taught one thing at the very end. Nothing can be as good as it can be until you realise that there is never an end to success, If you fall (pop) get that ass back up again and move on to something better!

Life is only as good as you make it.

Peace Keys <3 P/s hope you liked the game, but never be a balloon, you always loose that air that keeps you up.

I've finished... Or have I?

(Been a long time coming, but here it is.)  Yes I've finished my two years at 'good old' college, and after working out what I want to do with my life.. Well I've decided I need more time figuring out this, I mean theres so many things I would love to do but unfortunately, most of it is a bit extreme and I frankly don't have the brains for it. So I guess my solution is to go back to college for a 3rd year and work hard for another year to gain more UCAS points (grades) to be within a chance of getting into UNI. As that is my main goal, I reckon the longer I stay within the education system that I will buy (literally) more time with what i choose to do. 

I really should get back into this.. and I will!

Peace keys <3

Gettin' Down to Business

So I have my A-Level exams coming up and I'm still not sure on how I will do. I mean I'm aware of all my subjects and what I have to revise and remember, just that my brain cannot fully function! But I think thats just nerves and what have you. But i really want to make a go of it, i didn't spend my whole life in education to come out at the end worse off than i thought i would be. I think it's because I have so many things I would like to do, which I can't find one specific subject i love and would like to take into my future.

For example; I would love to be a perfessional photographer, however you need money for the equipment and skills I just can't seem to get the jist of. I mean i take alot of good photographs, but I just would like to be able to have one of those fancy cameras and be able to travel to the places I love to take photographs at.

I also would love to be an indepth Geographer/Geologist, not specificly a teacher, as I can't handle kids or people for that matter. But Iwould love to know everything in the world, where things are, how things happen, ectect. This takes huge amount of paitence and understanding and knowledge I just can't handle.

I have began to like journalisim too, which I think fits in well with how much I like photography, it would help alot and one of the main reasons I do Blogs is to see how well I can write and be able to capture attention with words. It would take alot of courage and disadvantages to get into this kind of business but I think I would enjoy it, and that's what life is about. If you don't enjoy your life and what you do in it, then I don't think you could fully enjoy anything you do.

I guess if I want to persue my deams and goals I will have to work extremely hard for them, like everyone else does. I just wish things could be as simple and easy as they are on paper.

Oh My Days

I really don't understand people these days. They either can make you really happy or just really upset and angry! I can't help but feel so much remorse for these people! And I just don't know whether I can take it. My emotions run high 24/7 and I have no control over falling apart over something so so so stupid! I mean I was even watching the film Wall-e and I cried! 

Why do some people have no idea how they make over people feel? Either they are totally oblivious to it or they just know having resentment is the best way to feel about these things. I want to know why people can have such a hold over someone and not know that they are destroying every last inch if their bones! 

My head is all over the place, and with people treating me like I'm nothing better than something you tred on then what's the point in trying to make it work? The most awful thing about it all is that it seems to be all my fault. Because I'm apparently such a bad person and because I have maybe more issues than some other 'sane' person that I can't be perfect like apparently everyone else but me is. 

Sorry for the rant! I can't sleep and I'm filling up with anger every second that people don't realize whats happening. Tarra! Peace keys <3

Why we do what we do

I suppose the title of this needs explaining. Well why do we do what we do? Meaning, why do we lie, cheat, love, lust, everything under the sun that compells us to do the things we do. Now instead of repeating the words ' Why we do what we do' i'm going to narrow it down so it's not so repetative to #WWDWWD if that makes sense?


To start off with: Telling blatant L I E S.


Well this can mean many of things. But to make it more simple. Why do we lie? I don't think theres any explaination of #WWDWWD that can come into this but when we think of lies, we often come to conclusion of that person is not TRUSTworthy. Not true! Some people lie because it's the only way of not telling the truth, as telling the truth is easy. Now i'm not saying that lies are much appreciated, but take for example you needed to lie because the truth would hurt not only the person your telling it too, but yourself aswell. Then theres a thought of, why not tell the truth so you both can be uplifted of the lie. Well yes sometimes that is better, but no-one can say a lie isn't worth telling. Truth and Lies can mean so much that both can be easier or harder to portray. But when it comes down to it, lieing is the easest way to get yourself out of the trouble that you are in. But telling the truth may reveal some terrible things, but once out in the open it's much easier to live with the truth than to live with a lie.


To make this un-gloomy, i'll second this off with: Why do we love?


Now i've wrote about love many times in my blog, either some bad or good. But either way Love is a word i prefer to use less often as i possibly can. Because Love can either make or break someones life, but there is a road to Love where at the end there is what some people call ' the light in love'. So theres me thinking could it actually be a word that can mean nothing and everything. People can Love for all types of reasons, just for the plain reason of loving someone because your heart overpowers your mind, or a reason of loving for money ect.. But Love can entitle a rollercoaster of rides. Yes i know very petty. And yes, i think to a certain extent i can love and i do love. But when can you tell that what you know and feel is actually LOVE? Well you don't.. because throughout your life, i'm sure of this, that you will love, you will get your heart broken multipul times, until you find the 'one'. And i'm totally sure that 'the one' may have come and gone in your life. But even if you spend 25 years living together, having kids and all the rest. Love can deteriorate just with a blink of an eye. So does that mean the 'end'? NO! ofcourse it doesn't! there's plently more time for you to fall in love, just don't think that the 'end' is the end, because there are bigger and better things in life to fall for, like PIGS! ha.


Going off topic seems to be my key inspiration in these blogs, but as i have said before, and i will over and over AND OVER again! Topics can spiral into many other things.


This blog is very long winded, and i'm not sure if you have read it all but if your reading this, THANK YOU! I love sharing things on here, and one day when i'm much MUCH older i will read these probably thinking ' WHAT IS THIS? but i will know that one day i felt like writing about all these things, and come to understand what a hectic life i had when i was in my teens, and what i went through and what i felt!


Once again thank you for reading. And i'm sure i will be posting more blogs when i have much more time to concentrate on my feelings. But that's difficult as i have so many. And i could literally write all day, time would past by and i wouldn't even think of it. Just like now..


Peacekeys <3 (p/s my next blog won't be so long!)

One Little Thing

Have you ever read something that killed you inside? Like a text message or someone's status. Everything was going fine until you accidentally came across something you didn't want to read. Or found out something you were better off not knowing. It's almost as if it was posted just to purposely hurt you. But you constantly read it over and over again to torture yourself. It sucks how one little thing can ruin your whole day.