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2014, I am sorry I haven't wrote to you sooner. Things have been kind of busy lately. Well for the most part of the year really. However I'm more than disappointed in myself. I always say in every blog that I will write more.. and every blog seems to be a couple of months apart. It seem's that I've failed on my own promises. Funny that though, because aren't all promises made because there is a risk of it being broken? Anyway getting off topic, AS USUAL!

This is my first 2014 blog. May be my last, may not be. I shall stop giving false hope and say that I'm not sure when my next blog will be after this one. Maybe then I won't be so disappointed with myself if you see another blog pop up 5 years down the line. I'm sure that wouldn't happen anyway.
I'd like to express something. Not sure whether It means anything but I will try and explain.

I'm now in my second year of university, exciting right? I mean It must be.. being able to carry something that you've worked so hard for, on your own should be exciting? Hmm, maybe.. But yes, second year! Moved into my new flat with 4 other house mates. It's not too shabby and will do for the most part of my second year. It's got 5 rooms, kitchen, bathroom, no lounge though, that sucks! However It's nice having a place that Isn't on campus.

I'm real sorry this blog seems all over the place, and that's because it is, how can I put this into words? Too many adventures have happened since we last spoke and I'm not sure that everything needs to be said. I mean past is past right? It's memories though.. some amazing memories that will stay for a life time.

As you're up to date now, I will continue the blog on real terms.
Have I ever told you that I absolutely love games? It's a real bad.. good habit of mine, of course apart from Photography, which is my hobby.. my craft.. my future.. But games! Who doesn't love them?

I'm a real nerd, I'm not the story kind of gamer, I'm the intense rush in got to finish everything before it beats me gamer.. The tank if you so wish. But if I met anyone my first conversation would go like .. "I'm Meg, and I play games" Some people don't understand games though, or gamers at all really. It's not about locking yourself away from the real world, it's about losing yourself in something you love. It's not about forgetting that real people exist and just never talking to anyone, because infact, I've talked to more people online gaming than I probably would have ever outside. 

So what does that tell you? Hmm.. but some people really don't understand gamers, they see it as a waste of life.. Well yes.. maybe.. but I don't see it as that. Do what you love and you will go places. Do what you hate and where will that get you? Misjudge me all you will but gamers are the most friendliest people going, and the most maddest, but if you get struck by a mad gamer.. their real life habits tend to be pretty intensely mad too. be careful, not everyone is as kind as you think they are over the internet. But that's the internet for you, full of surprises.

So I guess that's another thing my blog has learn't about me tonight. I've never really thought of mentioning it, but it has become a big part of me now, and if people can't accept it well.. they know how to log out.. oops I mean, where the door is.

This blogs going to be cut short as It's currently 3:22am and I'm rather tired. Hey no promises this time, but keep your head up high and tell everyone you're making it!

All the love in the world,
Meg,
and as always..
Peaceskies <3

x

A Happy Student

Well, I did it! I got into university and I don't think I've ever been so proud of myself! I worked so hard for the past 3 years at college, I did a 3rd year because I really wanted to do something with myself, and I found an ability that I was good at!

So now I'm studying Photography BA (Hons) at the University of Creative Arts. It's very nice here, although very expensive and posh!

I also am very happy, I look at life so differently as I did before. And now I'm ready to dig deep and really find the meaning.

Now for a little bit of sadness, My grandmother recently passed away, (10/09/13) It was very peaceful, and although amongst the pain, It brought great relief to everyone in the family that she wasn't suffering any more. I'm so glad she got to see me reach my goal, she got to know that I got into university. And still at the very end, she cared and worried about others more than she did herself. She requested that I have her suede sheep coat (from the 1950's+) It's so warm and I can't wait for winter to kick in to wear it! I love you nan <3

I know I said I will write more, and I will, not only for you, but for myself! 

Much love, 

Meg,

Peaceskies. 

<3 xox

One thing at a time..

Well it's now fully fledged into the year hasn't it? Can't believe how fast it is going! I'm soon to be going to university to study Photography as a degree, It doesn't feel real! Although I have to get my results yet ;)

I'm getting really serious about this whole photography thing now, I really want to do something with my life and even though this road I'm going down is one of the hardest professions to get into, you have to rely on others to like your work and be willing to pay for it! I hope it PAYS off!

On the other hand...

This is a horrible thing, affecting yet another member of my family. Anyone who is going through this I share my love and peace. 

P.S: I swear I will write more!

It's all about the money.

Money, £, $, MONEY! 

In for the change.

Well, as it's a new year I'd thought I will update this, and I am going to try and post a blog at least once a week! Maybe every Monday .. Anyway I hope everyone had a lovely Christmas and New Year send off. I spent It with my Mum and Nan.. It was the first Christmas without my Grandad, It felt ever so weird and strange with doing less and being with less people, although I did have to make the Christmas dinner with my Nan as my mum was working till 2pm, and no i did not burn it!! It actually turned out lovely. By the end of the day I had won £3 with playing deal or no deal board game, though I won't tell my Nan or Mum that i actually followed the £100,000 box around and chose the right one, ;)

2012 brought lots of pain and loss, with the death of my Grandad (forever rest in peace) on the 10th of Jan, which is close to a year and It still doesn't feel real. Amongst this I started college for my 3rd year, had to start new classes, meet new people all over again, and I think I'm nearly ready to go to Uni, however I have a very simplistic brain and I'll probably get more stressed and confused before i even get accepted into Uni let alone start.. But that's for me to worry about over the summer whilst waiting for results! From now on I'll have to put double effort in everything I do to really achieve what I want. 2012 also brought new oppotunites and experiences, however I'm stuck with the old, it's comfortable and I truly wouldn't want to change what I have and don't have.

2013 - Bringing it all to one, this is the year I'm going to finally be able to start experiencing a new perspective on life, with finishing college (FINALLY!!) and hopefully going to UNI to study Photography as an degree. Wishing to move away from home and family will be hard, but I want to widen my horizons and become independent, as I fear if I never leave this place, I will never change.  I'm worried that if I'm never fully alone, with no help and no one to turn to I'll always be hanging on by other people and never be my true  self.

As well as Uni prospects, I wish to finally get a job (Yes you may call me a bum, but I have been in education, and I've never really needed the money). I want to create an actual real life and become the person I want to be. To look different, and to be able to do all the things I couldn't do without getting too far into it.

Anyway, I'm really hoping that this year will be the big one, the life changer and the one to bring happiness and life back into me.

Wishing everyone a wonderful 2013 with many more years to come!

Live, Laugh, Love.

Peaceskies <3

I'm feeling like this could be it.

I've found it, I've finally found it! All along and it was there just waiting to come out. Happiness, I've found it and I'm never letting go.

Moving like a balloon

Explanation: A balloon either falls to the floor, eventually deflates or is popped which leaves nothing but the outside remains of the balloon itself. Or it floats up and gradually reaches its highest peak until it can't go any further and just pops. - The meaning of this is that what goes up must come down.

So, what does this exactly mean Meg? Well, it can mean whatever you wish it to mean. I can't tell you to believe or do anything, but I can persuade you. That's a trick worth learning, because without it, I don't think you'd survive.

Now either you reach your lowest point in life (which basically is when you die, because nothing could possibly be worse than that? Right? ) Well no, but you think it is, ok now that I’ve told you that nothing is worse than being dead, I bet that 1 million reasons for saying "that’s not true" comes to mind. Yes, well done you've gained access to part 2 of being a balloon, strange huh? I'm saying that you start off as a baby, grow up in a situation, reach a point where you think 'fuck this' and i'm telling you, EVERYONE reaches this point, because nothing can be perfect, even the rich little kids that get everything can fall over into a bush full of nettles and be scared for life (yes this happened to me, however at this point I was wealthy, well my parents were.)

Right so at this point I bet you're wondering where this is leading? Well me too.. I'm writing this as it comes to mind, nothing is planned. So now that we've all gathered we were once a baby and money is an object, we can start to gain access to part 3. Yes! Isn't this fun? Part 3 of a balloon.. you begin to aim higher and higher in life, going through many changes in emotions, decisions when eventually you're at the peak, BANG! Oh? whats that? Yes you've popped, and gained access to the real life you should have been living while you were floating up high to reach this moment.

Well done!

If you got none of this, I’ll allow you to be taught one thing at the very end. Nothing can be as good as it can be until you realise that there is never an end to success, If you fall (pop) get that ass back up again and move on to something better!

Life is only as good as you make it.

Peace Keys <3 P/s hope you liked the game, but never be a balloon, you always loose that air that keeps you up.